Surviving the ogre of despair and the dragon that decided I would make a fine mate for it! There is something truly scary about encountering a creature known for killing and finding it doesn’t want to kill you, it has sex on its mind! I hope I never face anything as horrid as that again!
Have you ever misused magic?
No! It’s fairer to say magic is guilty of misusing me given all it’s ever done is endanger me! I wouldn’t dream of misusing magic by the way. It’d be like trying to meddle with a bomb. You just know there’s going to be trouble of the nasty kind.
Will you be upfront with Edward, when he is older, about his magical heritage? Or will you try to suppress his instinctive skills as Eileen did with you? Now you’re a mother, do you have more sympathy with what Eileen tried to do here?
It’s not for you to tell me how to bring up my own son but I will say I will always act in his best interests. I can understand now why Mother did what she did but I’m still not convinced it was the best thing to do. Mother shouldn’t have defected or made absolutely sure she did such a good job of it, there would be no chance of her past catching up with her. I haven’t decided how to broach this with Edward when he is a suitable age but I do know I must decide.
Given you have magical skills, why not use them as widely as possible to make life easier for yourself?
Because I’m wary of unleashing forces I know I’m not in control of and where I suspect those forces could turn on me and control yours truly! Also I have had it drummed into me by the Queen and Mother the Kingdom’s existence must not be exposed to humanity. I figure the less I use magic the risk of accidental exposure is reduced. I do use some magic to make life easier for myself but limit its uses as I don’t want Edward going through life thinking the answer to all his problems is to blast them away with a wand or a spell. And I would point out your own Queen doesn’t think all problems should be solved that way either. It tends to lead to being overthrown!
Paul has come to terms with what you are, mainly thanks to blaming your mother. Yet your mother married for love and gave up a luxurious life for it. What would you give up for Paul?
Mother also decided to please herself, Roherum. She could have made a decent match with someone of her ilk in your world. She was expected to do so. There is a very strong argument Mother did let your world down. She has also unwittingly put my Dad and I at risk and now Edward too. Mother admits there are nasty creatures out there drawn to those with magical blood. I’m not thrilled at that. As for Paul, yes I’d defend him to the death, magically if necessary. Though also certainly magic would be the cause of my having to defend him to the death in the first place!